go there for new stuff (and transfers once I have time)

I don't want to litter my front page or my new account with this crap...so my angry journals will probably still show up here xD

Anyways...so...yeah...mom...

Anyone's mom want to adopt a 17 year old genderfuck? Mine isn't too happy with me at the moment...threatened to call the cops on me last night. We were arguing about trans related stuff and she told me to leave her room because it was making her 'hurt' and I snapped and screamed at her about how does she think I feel about it (we were arguing about pronouns and names) she told me to leave her room and I stood in the doorway and wouldn't move so she picked up the phone and threatened to call the cops to come get me. She called my dad and told him HOW HORRIBLE A DAUGHTER HE HAS so this morning he called me and told me that I would have to apologize to her. Which is why I didn't have him come get me last night...I knew he wouldn't actually take me to his house.

So mom and her puppy (er...boyfriend) are both being assholes and I have to get myself to therapy today...CDTA here I come.

We almost got into this argument right before alt prom...but I stopped since I had something to loose. Last night I was fed up and I didn't really have anything to loose so I snapped. All I was asking her to do was to avoid using unneccessary female pronouns because she left the bathroom or something and was like 'its all yours missy' which that sort of stuff always bugs me, but I decided to say something (calmly) about it. She gave me crap about adjusting, but its been FOUR MONTHS and she hasn't made any changes. She's called me haeden like three times...and only after I've said something and when it suits her because shes in a good mood.

I don't want her to come to orientation. She's saying its TOO HARD for her to call me haeden and use male pronouns for a few hours. I need to start off the year male...i'm going to go nuts if I dont...but no ITS TOO DIFFICULT FOR HER. I know she might make mistakes but she isn't even making an effort right now. Shes just making fucking excuses. I'm tired of being patient with her because I didn't come out for her, I came out for me. Sure its fucking selfish...but I'm tired of her and really fed up with excuses. I didn't even ask her to do any pronoun changes until last week. And now its too much? All I'm asking is to avoid unnessecary stuff and to change for the orientation. Thats it. But she was like YOU EXPECT ME TO CHANGE IN FOUR MONTHS WHAT I'VE BEEN DOING FOR 18 YEARS? I don't...I expect her to make a legitimate effort though.

She also brought the dog into the argument...she always does. She tells me if I yell around him he'll have another seizure. but SHES BEEN YELLING AT HER BOYFRIEND FOR THREE FUCKING DAYS. I'm sick and tired of double standards.

I want out...but if she ruins my orientation OH MY GOD I'm going to stab something. Haeden IS NOT a nickname...its MY NAME. I could care less if its legal...I know I have to fill out my legal name on legal papers...but that doesn't mean people that don't see my legal stuff have to know my birth name.

...my throat still hurts...alot...I really did snap bad last night. I really am fed up with this though...

Sorry for venting...just UGH...Gotta keep venting till I'm done with it cause I've got a lot pent up right now.


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Widu's body got here yesterday...but he came nekkid D: so I've got to make him clothes when I have time :3 Val is going to try and fix his wig (THANK YOU!) and his eyes will hopefully be here by next week.


and...Romi sold...so I'm getting home double checking paypal and magic erasering his arms from when I was outside the other day (it'll come off xD his arms just got a little debris on them) and then shipping him out before I head over to UAlbany. It only took like...two weeks to get someone that wanted him. It's slightly bittersweet, but I don't really think I'm going to miss him like...at all.

so now the dilema is...wait, or get cosmas and damien (twins), or get onyx and octavian.

I've been planning on the twins longer...but I'm not totally sure right now so I may wait a few weeks.

edit: Well that makes it much easier. I have enough for Cosmas and Damien, but not enough for Onyx and Octavian (I'd have to save up atleast $150 more so I could also get their eyes and a wig for octavian) So now its a matter of how long I feel like needing to wait.

Anyways...alt prom is tonight 8D and then rocky horror afterparty (with soup!)

-fin-

Widu is half together? xD
His wig got here yesterday...need eyes, body, clothes

ps: I wasn't kidding about hedwig and the angry inch GET OFF YOUR BUM AND GO WATCH IT


-fin-

ps: they make plushy STIs...I KNOW WHAT I'M GETTING EVERYONE FOR CHRISTMAS 8D (and for you little boy...you get syphilus for being so good)

So...I saw it like a year ago but it's on my mind at the moment since I'm listening to the sound track. If you haven't ever seen it you need to...and if you have seen it...go watch it again.